I know I am imperfect. Wow, so imperfect. I still am in defect from time to time. I still want to give in to old beliefs and fears from time to time. And my old habits, man, they cling to me like a newborn baby to their mother. I can be aware of that and have compassion for myself at the same time. Tomorrow I will do better. Although I say that every day, it will be true for the rest of my life. Tomorrow I will do a little better job at opening my heart, softening my soul, clearing my mind, and keeping my side of the street clean. Its an endless project trying to work on myself, and I know sometimes I need to try a little harder to take the contrary action. Its difficult for me sometimes to give up the behavior that feels like second nature. I am struggling with letting myself off the hook tonight. I should have known better. I should have done better. So what?! I wasn't perfect. I didn't work a perfect program. So what!!! NO ONE IS DYING. i will do better tomorrow. i love myself tonight exactly as I am. Defects, quirks, obsessions, compulsions and all...
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